August 2012
103 posts
I cant let any old fat gurl habits come back. And i must evaluate, watch & monitor myself 24/7 bc this is my body, and sometimes i dont pay close attention. And that just doesnt fly for me. Its my body and i want it how i want it. So i’ve got to deal with it, how i need to.
Rough day.
Lack of sleep.
Worn out from today.
Stress built up from school work.
Boyfriend troubles.
Body troubles/hormonal/emotional/weird problems happening in my body lately.
…….. my nutrition took a bit of a toll.
Its absolutely not my past. But its frustrating to get nutrition now a days, and still look as good as i want. Tough luck. But i gotta make it happen. Its what i want.
Goal...
Its time
Its time to cut off all my
1. Thinking
2. Procrastinating
3. Pondering
4. Worrying
5. Stressing
Its time to just do my shit. All of it.
Its the most amazing but weirdest thing ever, but ever since im maintaining now, im rarely even hungry. I eat moderate meals spread throughout the day, but i have to try to force myself to eat even just a 1000 calories, bc i dont want to lose much or anymore weight bc i dont want my butt & boobs to get any flatter!
But also, i have to limit carbs bc it makes me swollen & bloated when i...
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I am damn happy with my nutrition today.
So far, 50g protein, 50g carbs. And its mostly healthy =)
Gosh so much better than yesterday, like i promised. yesterday was not okay at all.
Theres no way i will put all that unhealthy processed sugar & carbs in my body. Its just discusting. I cant expect my body to perform at its best all day everyday, and i cant expect me to build a nice lean...
Here we go... I've finally had enough
Getting my maintenance phase settled & starting muscle building & thickening phase.
Im going to be okay. Im going to make it. Im going to be normal. My Goliath is dead. He is dead. I am victorious. I believe it. This… right here… in my life, is a simple bump in my life, and everything i learned will stick with me for the rest of my life. And i’ll be A OKAY!=)
Its time...
Defeated my Goliath.
What the mind & heart believes, the body achieves.
I am Sam.
The reason i have to keep going a little longer, is bc i have to get a hold of my eating & appetite, im not changed enough yet. Im getting rid of the last of that FAT girl inside me. You’re going! you’re going to be gone!
Im going to be thee best i can be. Im going to do it. Im finally going to just fucking do it.
I am strong. I am disciplined. I will come out a champion.
Actually i wont be at the gym too long today, i need a recovery day bc im sooooore, & i need to stretch man!
Plus i wont make it there by 9:15. So ill work out for just like 30-45 today. Its more important that i rest enough anyway.
I saw pics of my cousin today n she looks so good in pants n all. I still look fat n flabby in pants & shorts. Sucks. :( so im def not satisfied at my...
Tomorrow!
Mannn i am wide awake! And i really dont want to sleep. Im excited tha bf is coming home tomorrow, after 2 weeks! seems like its been forever, i honestly dont remember his face anymore. geez.
But i need to go to bed now, bc i need to make sure i get enough sleep, or else i’ll be so fuckin lame tomorrow,
and i so cant be, bc i pick him up from the airport at noon, and i cant wait. Im gettin...
Workin out at the gym right now, and yep, i definitly feel better. As usual. Almost done w this 15 mins of elip then weights, then time to go home n clean up a lil for the bfs return tomorro. I pick him up from the airport. Peace out till tnites blogging:)
Mannn. I burned a lottt of cals yesterday.
I did:
Core synergistics,
Gym- 10 min stairs, 2 mile inclined run, 2 hrs eliptical, and weight lifting.
Im feeling really bad right now. I just dont feel too great. Im getting emotional n i dont want to do anything & idk wat to do w myself. So im just guna go to the gym now. Im just guna go. I always feel better after. Plus i just have to. So...
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Now that i think of it, it was actually all just in one day!
But it was a whole fuckin lot, that y i look so horible rite now. Plus cuz yesterday i had a pretty beat up day lol.
But for sat after midnite it only came out to 2000 cals for that day n i went to the gym too that day. So that aint even a gain.
So the only gain i have is yesterday which is about 3500 cals. But i also go exercise too...
I want my life back. My healthy, free, full of...
I was so happy. Living my new lifestyle. I have such a more surge for life & living. And i enjoy doing ANYTHING. Nothing is boring. Im not lazy. & im the best me i can be.
But even more when i reach my goal & start moderating. Bc ill feel better more :)
I have 2 days!
To get ready for my baby to come home!
SHIT DAYUMMM. Its guna be a hardcore to the maxxx 2 days!
Also, im going walking tonight for sure.
Im gettin better at this:) No more depression. Well, as much as possible. I will try my best.
Finally at home, inside.
I can honestly say im worried….. :( And after all the ups n downs i go thru, i can honestly say i know what i want now. And im so glad that i do, bc now im going to try so much harder. Im not going to lose something so good.
….. And guess what rite when i typed that, he txted me back:’) made me so happy. Now i definitly know what i want.
Sometimes it takes for things to go...
Minor setback. Nothing that i cant automatically fix tomorrow.
Ill add up evrything. And tomorro ill be cleansing. I dont got much food anyway. Shootz
I gotta always remember no matter how crappy i feel or dont wana workout, i always feel a million times better!
So ill never skip. Always worth it:)
Waikiki tonite on the beach. I cant wait to just let go & forget all my worries in my life for a nite. & im finally guna hang w andrew for the first time since we met.
We’ll see how that goes. I rlly wana meet new ppl. N expand my...
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Anxiety. Right now. So im going to channel all that to this frickin math assessment. Just imagine wen you finally pass it, it will all be over! And u can chill the fuck out! & go out tomoro nite n have crazy fun! Tonite after i can upload my bikini pics, watch tv, tumblr n get some good sleep! Cuz tomorro im goin to the fleemarket, gym, then watevr i want till the nite!! Finally seeyin andrew...
Early Mornings
Its 8 in the morning
Chillin in the den on the couch w the TV on(=
Wrapped in a warm blanket, with my phone, laptop & tea(=
Time to get ready for the day & class in 5 mins. Im not guna be late today. Bet ur bottom dollar.
And i definitly feel better this morning, from last night. I already knew that was guna happen.
I <3 Mornings[=
On schedule
I found that planning out all my meals the day before really helps the next day, so that i never go hungry & not have options.
Im on a cut, and theres no room for errors. So, i gotta make sure i got every little thing covered. =) Shits serious. ya better believe it;)
Also, its better wen i eat throughout the day bc then i have more energy & burn more cals.
So, i have this cute little...
Peanutbutter.... is now OK! :) ..... for this...
So im eating peanut butter now, bc it really helps me feel full n gives me alot of energy plus it doesnt have hardly any carbs so its good. And i like it alot more than the other stuff that are like empty, pb is more fulfilling for me.
I decided it would be okay from now on, also bc im getting enough protein from my breakfast & dinner meals, so lunch i can have pb!(=
Carrots & Peanutbutter
If anyone has never tried it before.
YOU MUST.
Its not joke.
Its my #1 fav snack of all time!<3
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Had an okay diet today. Ended up w a little too much fruit.
Tomorrows guna be great tho, got some good shit planned.
& swimming n tanning tomorro for my exercise yeyyyyy! Tired of looking pale! Need some color & vitamin d! (=
Goodnite world. Im so happy right now. With just…. everything(x
He rlly missed me tonite n sounded rlly sad, feel bad i wasnt up for talkin much. I wasnt...
Tonight was just amazing
When you reunite with people u havent seen in years, when ur life was so different back then, you realize how much you’ve grown.
And im just like still that freakin awsome person inside, but i totally transformed myself. And everything else, like in my life, that is different now, & that i have a bf, n he’s hot n amazing & all.
Like wow. TOnight was just beautiful &...
So, today, i tried out pb with carrots for dinner.
And i do wish i chose the healthier option of eating a salad. So from now on i know what i’ll do, bc i need to make sure i get enough nutrition, so my hunger is as least as possible.
Its ok for today tho, bc i didnt want the bloat cuz im goin to see my frens tonite.
But i did go a lil hungry in the fridge. But nope didnt do much. :)just a...
So, i want peanut butter at the moment.
But im thinking since i need to be very selective & maximize my nutrition…
I dont think its the healthiest idea, its alot of calories & not nutritious enough for this diet, its mostly just fat (peanut fat too- the worst) and hardly any protein.
When im done losing weight it’ll be fine, but for now, its not gonna happen.
So, i wont...
Good morning world!
3 day cleanse done!
Im so proud of my self. I hadent done that since like last summer.
Wow.
Well im about to be even more proud of myself these next 14 days;D till school starts!
Im ready! Im ready!
Anonymous asked: What did you do for the cleanse?
