April 2012
157 posts
Everyones hoping ill slip off my path, b/c they think its not possible, or im not strong enough, or that im weak. That im just not serious enough to totally 360 change my life, turn it upside down, & take full control of it.
I will be/am already living walking proof that I have what nobody ever expected I did, I can do what nobody ever thot I culd. Especially my own family. They dont think I...
Its about time, I made up my fucking mind, what I...
I was so upset & angry. I reached a point where no matter how much my body was craving watever the fuck it was b/c of wat I used to feed it…. I would not do it, not one more single time. No more. I refuse to live that way anymore. Im done. Get ready for some really fucking insane changes. B/c im making them.
Get ready summer, b/c in a month & a half ill be kickin the ball out the...
Bout to take it to a whole nother level. I just went fucking straight to the gym. I am so effing proud of myself. I dont want to be fat anymore damnit. And im going to work my ass off to get there!
YES I fucking can.
FUCK.
I hate being fat!
I dont want to be fat anymore!
I dont want all this junk food anymore!
Its all around me! what do i do!!?!?!?
I just want to get away & lose ALL THIS SHIT!
FUCK this is all so unneccesary fighting i have to do, just b/c of my stupid fucking parents, and family & house. ANd all this makes it SO MUCH FUCKING HARDER!
Is it impossible. It cant be. Its possible...
Best Snickers bar I ever had! Thank God its the only piece of junk I will be feeding my precious body today. I aint in no hells way wasting all the exercise I been doing! Idk wat ill eat for the rest of today, maybe jus fruit/ or a salad, if I must ill have a frozen meal. But I really need to start the calorie drop Todayyy! So wat if I had candy for lunch. I guess that replaces my lunch then! Its...
The reasons im guna be a beast
Im not just guna be thin and slim w a pretty face… Im guna be fit as hell, toned, and strong.
With killer style combined with my rockin crazy awsome personality…..
Imma be amazingly sexy as hellllllllllll <3
~Before You Know It~
…. the day will be over, and then sooner than you think another week will be done, and every single day you just disciplined yourself and followed your plan exactly & you start to feel absolutely amazing again! and happy! And then 2 more weeks will pass in a flash, and you will weigh in the 130’s! And you can start wearing old clothes & jeans, one by one! And a month will pass,...
March 2012
332 posts
Ran 6 miles tonight. More than i planned ofcourse;]
Ate a bit more than i wanted, but tomorrow is a new day, and tomorrow will be even better. Im back bitchez! And im going hardcore all the way till i hit that finish line!
Fuck yeahhhh.
Journey to Perfection: Never tell yourself you... →
beautyisbliss80:
“I can’t climb that mountain.” Yes you can.
“I can’t run a mile in 6 minutes.” Yes you can.
“I can’t fast for a week.” Yes you can.
“I can’t go talk to him/her.” Yes you can.
“I can’t speak in front of a crowd.” Yes you can.
“I can’t ace this test.” Yes you can.
“I can’t have get the job I…
i'm never the first choice
Discipline. Hardwork. Patience. Keep pushing to your goal. And the day will come when you will be SEVERAL first choices.
I am going to be skinny. And I am going to reach...
So, today my, plan was to just sleep rest the whole day to help my self as much as possible to shrink my stomach & appetite first b/c thats wats messed up rite now, but I cant just lay here, I want to rid myself of this discusting fat feeling, its so true that you cant out exercise a bad diet, b/c at the end of the day its all about the calories/energy. I need to exercise nowww already I cant...
I feeeel terrrrrrrribleeeee. like shit shit shitttt. I want to feel great and amazing again! I fucking hate this. Im done! Im fucking done.
Friday's Goal
Shrink stomach
Shrink reset appetite
REBLOG IF YOU'RE A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE, NOT A 12...
FOR LIFE!
Good decision.
Im not in a place to put myself out there yet,
and im not competition with her right now,
and i dont want to be in competition with her at all
but i had a feeling that if i went,
i would end the camp feeling, sad, hurt, stupid, ugly, still fat, and just not good enough at all,
and i really aint up to feeling that way, right now,
Its not the right time yet to come out of my cacoon,...
i aint no poet but ill tell you what i believe in
crystalindulgence:
your success threatens them
keep achieving and they’ll hate you more
so succeed more
until all they have left is the envy of what you became, while they sat there and watched you become it
One day. just one.
I cant let all the people down. Everyone knows what im doing now, its not just me myself and i anymore, everyone is watching & waiting for me to succeed„„ or fail b/c they dont think im strong enough. Everyone is looking for it, and for LLAB next week, i WILL be under 143, hopefully 140-142. This was my last set back, from this day foward i will not waste a day, i will not stop. I...
To do
Just done 1.5 hrs at the gym. idk wat im guna do now but I aint watchin TV or sittin around. Im guns do my haircut on Sunday fusho. So ill start start my math hw tonight. Paycee
Keep thinking about that better feeling & every...
Tomorrow wen I wake up in the morning, remember how happy you will start to be again, happy with your every action the day before. As your confident builds up with every new day that goes by, with every new pound that burns off. Becoming a mother effin beast to fulfill ur purpose in this life. I will start to feel the fat shedding. Everything shrinking & getting toned and tougher.
Run to forget everything. Sleep to forget...
TO ME:
I just want to model. There’s no doubts, worries, and confusion for me in that. I will just wear what i want, decent, be myself, as i slowly transform. I dont care if he exists or not. I will be myself, and if anyone doesnt care for it. Too bad everybody else loves it. Theres a bagillion good guys in this world, i have yet to meet & save myself for. #shay
I LOVE how i felt on Sunday. That is what im...
But it only takes me one meal to get back on track, and thats tomorrow morning breakfast, im already back on track. BITCHEZ!;)
GOAL
To not feel fat atleast 90% of my everyday life.
Achievable.
After seeing myself the woman i was becoming, i cant stand seeing myself these past 3 days. Im definitly back on track tomorrow.
I’ve got a tonnn of growing up to do, but first im losing this weight.
ENOUGH.
I haaaaate this pain. And depression. And its ALL b/c of something stupid like overeating. Like seriously. Im wasting my life & time & money & im so depressed rite now I can barely hang on life. I cant do this anymore. I guess I shuldnt have gone out last nite, I thought I was all strong & back to my new self, but I guess I wasnt.
But its mostly that, wat else was I suppose to do?...
